The Coffee is Cold but I'm Still Drinking it

With having Monday off for Labor Day, today kicks off my work week and I’m trying to go into it with a fresh start.  With a half marathon under my belt from the weekend, I’m feeling super puffy with water weight and I’m trying to not freak out over it. It’s been reassuring to read some forums that other runners have contributed to all feeling the same way as me right now. After reading some posts all saying the same thing that “this” will go away after a couple days, I’ve internally calmed myself down from having a self-loathing/stupid diet inducing/new fitness trend starting crisis. I run every day on top of the classes I teach, and my diet is pretty clean. I know I need to dial down my weekly cheat meal, and I can afford to cut out the homemade Frappuccino’s I have on an almost daily basis. I’m proud of myself for not freaking out and heading for comforts of baggy clothes, instead I’m accepting what it is and not letting it beat me up. It helps to keep reminding myself of the goal I’m working towards and recap my current training/diet plan I’m on. Both of which are already pretty hefty and there’s no need to add to it or obsess over it.

That whole spiel was just an accountability check for me, a way to keep myself flying right. The real reason for this post, is to try to start my week on the right foot. As I sit here at work trying to take advantage of not being busy, I’m teaching my mind to be optimistic and picture myself being happy. While doing so, I smile every now and then to promote positivity. It’s time for me to start believing in hope and faith again. To start seeing silver linings and taking the good with the bad. I am sitting on the precipice of change in more ways than one. I start a new job next week, with lots of responsibility and a high expectation of me. This change, will hopefully bring some more growth and hopefully a turn for the better in my life. I want to look back on the grey days and feel happy with how far I’ve come.  I want to practice self- love and focus on me. I’m tired of getting caught up in what everyone else is doing and be more proud of my accomplishments and my journey.